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When reading a storybook, I always try my best not to flip to the end.

Although I'm always curious to know the ending but it will make me lose interest in reading what's going on in between.

If my life is a story, likewise, I wouldn't wanna know my ending but I'm really curious how the plot will be like for the next chapter.

By the way, who is the author of my story?

God?

or

me?

If I'm the author then why couldn't I control the plots of my story?

So, will the mysterious author be kind enough to give me a wonderful ending?

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” ~ Maria Robinson

I love to look at the moon & stars while walking Happie as it always give me a very wonderful feeling.

I don't think many people (maybe in Singapore) care & bother to admire the lovely night sky.

Anyway, I was walking Happie yesterday & happened to see how nice the moon was so I decided to take a picture of it.

The picture turned out nicer than I expected & glad that Happie was quietly sitting down waiting for me to take this picture.


Saw the star beside the moon?

I saw it today again after my class while walking to the bus stop & my classmate said it was not a star, it was the satellite.

Hmmm....

It looks like a star to me.

I wonder will my sis be able to see the star/satellite in US & my bro be able to see that too in China....

It's so amazing that though we are all far apart but we are still seeing the same moon every night.

“To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don't worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest”

I'm still keeping them... everything.

Will slowly one by one delete them &

当全部都删除了以后。。。一切就真的结束了。

“Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it's all over.”~ Gloria Naylor

Today is my last day of work.

Hate to leave my nice & lovely colleagues.

Couldn't find any better colleagues in other companies like them at the moment.

No politics, no selfishness & standing on the same side against boss. Haha...

Most of all I feel so bad towards my senior, didn't really wanna leave her almost alone in the battle.

However, I know clearly that I HAVE to leave.

Last minute cleared all my rubbish & packed my stuffs.

Looking at my clean table... suddenly I feel kinda lonely & had the thought of staying on which the feeling I couldn't really explain.

It's like..the place is so familiar to me which feel like my second home yet sometimes hate to go & when realised I won't be coming back..it's kinda sad.

Definitely I'm gonna miss my table, my work, my colleagues & my boss.

Leaving behind all the stress & bad memories, I felt so light yet so empty.

“Everything you want in life has a price connected to it. There's a price to pay if you want to make things better, a price to pay just for leaving things as they are, a price for everything.”~ Harry Browne

30th June, a very amazing day.

So many things happened today!


One of my colleagues who I always like to chat with left the company today.

I got to know a new friend who loves dog as much as I do & he lives very very near me!

I chatted for very long on the phone with a supplier who I barely know & he gave me a lot of his personal advices.

I finally chatted with another supplier who I see almost everyday for the past 5 months plus but never talk a single word before.

A guy who used to go to the same religious place as me popped up in front of me & asked if I still remember him! I didn't know he is one of my supplier too! So coincidence!

Added a new friend into my MSN list. She is my supplier too!

Chatted with one of my old school mates who I didn't chat with for very long & he threw one big bomb at me to share his happiness.

Chatted with a friend & just when I was so disappointed with his tactless remarks,

he said the final sentence to make everything sound..........

sweet.

However, I can no longer judge how true it is anymore.

Suddenly, I realised my world is revolving so much around the people at my work.

.

.

難過 我哭 是因為我的手找不到你說的 以後

“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.” Bob Moawad

Was thinking on the bus, if a Genie came to me & gave me one wish to be granted no matter what it is, what will it be?

I thought for more than half an hour & came up with these:

" I wish I have three wishes that will be granted no matter what they are."

Hee hee. Of course this wish will be granted & I can think of three more.

"First, I want to have the ability to read the minds of any people & animals I want to read."

"Secondly, I want to have the ability to turn back time."

"Lastly, I want to have the ability to heal illnesses."

Hmmmm.... I wonder can I just sum these three up just by wishing that I can do whatever I want, then I will have two more wishes.

Anyway, nothing better to do & to be more practical, I came up with a short wish list for this year which can only be fulfilled by myself. Haven't met any genie yet.

Hee hee.

• A new job
  
• A new desktop
• A new pair of spectacle
  
• A new hairstyle & colour
• A new wardrobe of clothes
• My first manicure
  
• A trip to Hong Kong, Taiwan or Japan (depending on my financial status)
• Finally, a positive health report

Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbows will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're feeling small
Alone in the night you whisper
Thinking no one can hear you at all
You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know, tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true

A dream is a wish your heart makes...

A dream is a wish your heart makes...

You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know, tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true

No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true

“I will not wish thee riches nor the glow of greatness, but that wherever thou go, some weary heart shall gladden at thy smile, or shadowed life know sunshine for awhile. And so thy path shall be a track of light, like angels' footsteps passing throug”

Maybe God wanna train me to be stronger by making me learn to face realities all by myself.

Yes, alone.

Career.

Relationship.

Family.

They all come to me at the same phase.

They are testing my endurance too.

Getting tired...... I need a place to do what I wanna do now.

“Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weaknesses” ~ Madame Marie du Deffand

Wednesday: Met up with the Simmies Awesomefive short of one. I was tired after a busy day at work but I Miss them soooo much & we had so much so much to catch up with one another.

The simmies

A tired me.

Thursday: Slept at 3am the previous night & I totally forgot that I had to study for my Japanese test! Anyway, my last minute study did help a little. Totally K.O. on my way back home on the bus after my Japanese class.

Friday: Knitting class & after that met up with my buddies for a drink & had a long chat with them in a quiet park till 2am! We hardly do that after we all started working & really happy to have them around when I needed them the most.

Saturday: Woke up around 9.30am & went for my all time favourite ~ KTV! Sang straight for 6-1/2hrs! ^^
On the train back home, I suddenly miss Kai Kai.
I miss hugging him, miss his smell, his cries & his singing.... have to endure for another four more days.

Sunday: My buddy's birthday! Will be going out tomorrow to celebrate with her. ^^

I'm so sleepy now ~

“Blessed is the person who is too busy to worry in the daytime and too sleepy to worry at night.”

History repeats again.

I never learn my lesson.

I thought he's different from him &

I thought I found someone who cherished me more than anyone else.

Yah.. I know they are all "I thought" only.

Actually, they are exactly the same.

Met through the same medium

Went to the same place

& they ran away using the same way too.

But.. this time it hurts more.

For once, I followed my heart irrationally.

I thought this time finding out why will lighten the weight but I didn't know the stone had cut me.

Ok... Don't ask me anymore.

“Love is I know not what, which comes from I know not where and finishes I know not how.”

你说的话 我都相信
说得好听 说得甜蜜
你说的每一句 我都相信

为了爱情 失了聪明
听你的话 闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽 让它继续

你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不能确定
也许你只把它当游戏
我却爱得太用力

你说的话 我都相信
说得好听 说得甜蜜
你说的每一句 我都相信

为了爱情 失了聪明
听你的话 闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽 让它继续

你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不能确定
也许你只把爱当游戏
我却没有那麼聪明

你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然后 静静 不去理

你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然后 静静
静静 是再也不去理

“Love is being stupid together.”~ Paul Valery

Baby Kai-en is sooooo cute!!!

Can't get enough of him...his sleeping face is sooo adorable!!!

My Brother -in-law with BB Kai

Ah~ He's smiling ^^

What is he looking at? Hee hee
Curious baby~

Hee hee ~ He's yawning~
Time for bed~

"Every new born baby is God’s opinion that the world should go on."

The fence is slowly losing its defense.
Going deeper tends to make me lose myself.
It's straining me....
I saw the hateful me once again.
It's scary...
Oh my, I'm so tired
please return the peace I used to have back to me.

"The worst thing a guy can do is let a girl fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall."

My nephew will be here in another five hours time!

So anxious to see him!!!

Dreamt of my sis & him yesterday... but not a good one cos my sis scolded me in that dream.

Haha...

Dreams & realities are opposite right?

LUCKY!

I knitted a pair of hats for my sis & BB Kai...


The colour is too bright... I know.

Hope they like them.

“The greatest gift you can give another is the purity of your attention.” ~ Richard Moss

................. Cute!!!

I rejected the offer by my company as a perm staff.

Today while he was walking behind me,

he mumbled like a child...

"why did you reject our offer?"

I turned around & smiled at him awkwardly...

"Want me to talk to you?" He asked.

I immediately shouted "NO!!" & scurried away!

Ha ha

I admit I'm a soft hearted person.

People used my weakness to take advantage of me sometimes.

But today my senior pleaded me to reconsider to stay...

I wavered again.

I'm so useless! So wishy washy!!!

Between Favor & Prospects, I know the latter is more important...isn't it?

“Indecision is the graveyard of good intentions”

在东京铁塔　第一次眺望
看灯火模仿　坠落的星光
我终於到达　但却更悲伤
一个人完成　我们的梦想

你总说　时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天　就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛


没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙　让我去流浪
在原地等我　把自己捆绑

你没说　你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动　自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着　你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰　你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go." ~ Herman Hesse

I believe my indecisiveness is because I have thinking cells aplenty.

I was told by many people that I always think too much.

I realised that.

Always worrying about consequences of things that have not even happen.

I aways make a mountain out of a mole hill.

Over rational sometimes.

In relationship, my friends often tell me to lower my expectations.

However, I really do not know when did I start to choose the man to be with rationally.

By check listing on looks, prospects, personalities etc.

My heart's expectation is actually very simple, as long as I feel happy with him...

but my mind always eventually suppressed the heart's will.

“The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.”~ Thomas Merton

My colleague told our new colleague...

" Got problem, you can look for Casey, she's a kind girl............."

Being kind only ended up getting more workloads.

I decided not to be so kind so I talked harshly to my storeman today saying that he was being unhelpful for not helping me when I requested his help earlier.

He then said, "Ok, I'm free now, just let me know what do you want."

Did he sense that I was being harsh???

Am I harsh enough?

Or is it by being harsh, people will tends to help you more?

I'm confused.

“Do not destroy a child’s dignity. There is a vast difference between being harsh and being firm.”

I wanna get out of the tiny circle i'm cooping in for so long!

I'm still the same old me, the same one 10 years ago.....

It only means there's no progress & no improvement made.

I hate that!

How can I learn to be tougher, be firmer & be more confident?

Frustrated!!!

Where is the sense of achievement I'm yearning for?

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”~ Mark Victor Hansen

Recently,

I'm quite busy with Paulo Coelho ~ (Time for reading),

I'm very busy playing with my PSP ~ (Time for Tales of the World),

I'm also busy crochetting my booties ~ (Time for Crochetting),

I'm always busy revising my Japanese ~ (Nihongo no jikan),

I'm kinda busy with my Korean Drama ~ (Time for Behind the white tower),

I'm definitely very busy with my Japanese Dramas ~ (Time for Absolute Boyfriend / Last Friends!) ,




I'm also seems to be busy listening to his songs ~ (Relaxing time),

I like his soothing voice ~ & .....

Now time to be busy with my beauty sleep! ^.^

"Most people are so busy knocking themselves out trying to do everything they think they should do, they never get around to what they want to do."

I hardly wake up before 9am on Sunday.

Last Sunday, I woke up at 6.30am.

Unbelievable huh...

I woke up to join Karen, her parents & many others to Upper Peirce reservoir for a slow morning walk.

Beautiful morning

My dearest mummy.

A tired me cos I slept at around 3am the previous night.
Addicted on PSP...... (-_-)"

Peaceful view

Nice park huh?