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Learned a new phrase from Karen today.

"Love span"

Indeed, some people have short love span & some have long love span.

I hope majority is the latter.

Nevertheless, speaking from an inexperience me, I think in the end it still takes two to maintain & determine the length of your love.

Act within my own consciousness & remain faithful to my love one are part of my relationship guidelines.

Maintaining a relationship is easier to say than done.

Coz our heart always act faster than our brain huh.

"My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never."

Gotten 2 days MC from doctor.

Spent another sum of money seeing doctor.

The money that my company gave for my medical is really not enough to cover my dental + medical cost.

I'm not complaining..I'm really not.

However, with the money I've spent... I bought myself two days.

I always think we, human always like to buy more time for ourselves using money.

Yes, time can be bought with money.

Not the time that we already used though.

Like how we always spend more money on express bus/train to buy that extra time we saved.

But did we fully utilize that extra time to make it worthwhile?

“City people try to buy time as a rule, when they can, whereas country people are prepared to kill time, although both try to cherish in their mind's eye the notion of a better life ahead.” ~ Edward Hoagland

My Dentist Day had finally arrived.

My dentist is so popular that I always have to wait months for him to see me.

Seeing him this time I knew my wallet will bleed.

Indeed but more than I had expected!

He scolded me that I had ate too many sweets, causing the decays.

Not one, but three decays all on my molar teeth.

My bill before discount: $385
My bill after discount : $300

Almost fainted.

After my expensive dental fee, I went shopping alone.

With all the tempting sales going on, I controlled myself extremely well & decided to go somewhere free to spend my time there before my class starts!

I went to the National Library & I simply love library!

Without spending unnecessary money, I got myself three interesting books. ^^

After my class, as per planned, I headed towards to my beautician's house for my monthly facial.

I just couldn't save my money on that!

When did Casey become such a spendthrift?

Today's spending:

Dental: $300
Bread: $1.50
Pancake: $1
Facial: $55
Total: $357.50

Oh no! I spent so much in just a day.

Oh yes, bread & pancake are my breakfast & lunch.

“A wise man should have money in his head, but not in his heart.” ~ Jonathan Swift

An interesting table from Robert Plutchik

I wonder why is Love = Joy + Acceptance.

Honestly.

I don't know all his songs but my favourite are always

"Heal The World" & "You Are Not Alone"

Classic songs ever.

Just happened to saw another of his MV just now & was so touched by it.

It does not have touching melody like the two songs above but the impact is amazing.

Please read the lyrics too.

It's really sad & sudden that MJ has left us...but his legend never dies.



What about sunrise
What about rain
What about all the things
That you said we were to gain...
What about killing fields
Is there a time
What about all the things
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the blood we've shed before
Did you ever stop to notice
The crying Earth the weeping shores?
Aaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaah

What have we done to the world
Look what we've done
What about all the peace
That you pledge your only son...
What about flowering fields
Is there a time
What about all the dreams
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the children dead from war
Did you ever stop to notice
The crying Earth the weeping shores?

Aaaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaaah

I used to dream
I used to glance beyond the stars
Now I don't know where we are
Although I know we've drifted far

Aaaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaaaaah

Hey, what about yesterday
(What about us)
What about the seas
(What about us)
The heavens are falling down
(What about us)
I can't even breathe
(What about us)
What about the bleeding Earth
(What about us)
Can't we feel its wounds
(What about us)
What about nature's worth

(ooo,ooo)
It's our planet's womb
(What about us)
What about animals
(What about it)
We've turned kingdoms to dust
(What about us)
What about elephants
(What about us)
Have we lost their trust
(What about us)
What about crying whales
(What about us)
We're ravaging the seas
(What about us)
What about forest trails
(ooo, ooo)
Burnt despite our pleas
(What about us)
What about the holy land
(What about it)
Torn apart by creed
(What about us)
What about the common man
(What about us)
Can't we set him free
(What about us)
What about children dying
(What about us)
Can't you hear them cry
(What about us)
Where did we go wrong
(ooo, ooo)
Someone tell me why
(What about us)
What about babies
(What about it)
What about the days
(What about us)
What about all their joy
(What about us)
What about the man
(What about us)
What about the crying man
(What about us)
What about Abraham
(What was us)
What about death again
(ooo, ooo)
Do we give a damn

“The meaning of life is contained in every single expression of life. It is present in the infinity of forms and phenomena that exist in all of creation.” ~ Michael Jackson

I met Lady A just after I came out from the washroom after work.

We were so happy to see each other that we forgot to press the lift.

We chatted along the way to the bus-stop.

She met Lady B at the bus stop, who I didn't know.

Lady A said hi to Lady B.

After a while, Lady A saw her bus coming, bidded farewell to us & boarded the bus.

Lady B turned to me & started a conversation with me.

Voila!

I made a new friend.

If I had left the washroom one minute later or if we didn't miss the lift...

There would not have any Lady B.

Fate is such a mystery.

Every minutes & every seconds counts...

As if they are pre-planned.

I can still remember there were many such encounters between us but were neglected.

The seat, the lift, the bus-stop, the food courts & the back entrance.

“There are no little events in life, those we think of no consequence may be full of fate, and it is at our own risk if we neglect the acquaintances and opportunities that seem to be casually offered, and of small importance.”~Amelia E. Barr

Maybe it won't be the same anymore.

The anticipation is no longer there..

Though cruel sometimes, but it didn't matter.

Anywhere, anytime...

私の願いが君の幸せだけです。。。

本当にありがとうも言いたい。。。

”ではまたね”を言ってはいけませんでしょう。

“The story of life is quicker then the blink of an eye, the story of love is hello, goodbye.” ~ Jimi Hendrix

More than one person had ever told me that I'm defensive.

The first person who told me this is my ex-manager.

Before he told me, I didn't realize it at all.

However, come to think of it...

If I don't defend myself...

who will?

“We defend ourselves with descriptions and tame the world by generalizing” ~ Iris Murdoch

When a person's age grows along with the number of years in the company...

She will try all means to protect herself & her position.

In order to display her knowledge gained from the experience...

she will show no mercy.

Even if she has to backstab you.

If not, she will lose her value.

I was backstabbed by her.

That's the working life in a MNC.

No flexibility as well.

Always the same question, "What's the process?"

Without the process, nobody knows how to work anymore.

“The crucial variable in the process of turning knowledge into value is creativity.” ~ John Kao

While tidying my mailbox, I found a draft mail which I have saved it since 4th Sep 2004.

I found the first lyrics that I ever wrote for Yida's competition but I didn't find it good enough to enter so I never send it in the end.

However, at that time & even till now, I still couldn't think of a song title for it.

Anyway, enjoy Casey Chan's first lyrics that inspired her for the 2nd, 3rd, 4th & more to come.

Hopefully, one day, Casey can have her first complete song.

頑張ります!

Lyrics#1

詞: Casey
曲: Yida

時間走的太慢
一分一秒不停旋轉
一點一滴把愛轉淡

時間讓愛變慢
讓心也越來越孤單
告訴我應該怎麼辦

好想回頭看一看
從前多麼的勇敢
愛你不覺的孤單

請你 將我心用愛填滿
不再讓它空虛寂寞孤單
把它變成賓紛又燦爛

讓我 再愛你感覺不難
不再讓我的愛變的茫然
也沒有遺憾

時間走的太慢
一分一秒不停旋轉
一點一滴把愛轉淡

時間讓愛變慢
變的孤單
應該怎麼辦

好想回頭看一看
從前多麼的勇敢
愛你不覺的孤單

請你 將我心用愛填滿
不再讓它空虛寂寞孤單
把它變成賓紛又燦爛

讓我能再愛你感覺不難
不再讓我的愛變的茫然
也沒有遺憾

感謝你將我心用愛填滿
不再讓它空虛寂寞孤單
把它變成賓紛又好燦爛

讓我 再愛你感覺不太難
不再讓我的愛變的茫然
也沒有遺憾
有你在身旁

怕遺憾
時間慢 愛變慢
會孤單 讓愛填滿

看一看 多勇敢 不孤單
不太難 不茫然 沒遺憾

Lyrics#2

幸福過後

電話聲响起時 我知道那一定是你
一句溫暖話語 直往心中幸福區域
不管天涯海角 只要你在身邊就好
心里甜甜滋味 因為是你所以加倍

想說一聲謝謝你曾給過的一切
雖然所有的美夢已經被你破滅
從今以後只能選擇一個人逛街
最後只希望你能好好和我告別

電話再次响起 我知道不會再是你
沒有溫暖話語 心中圍繞孤單區域
不管天涯海角 只要你還過的很好
心里苦澀滋味 因為是你所以加倍

Lyrics#3

思緒都是離開我的你
開口的是我 離開的是你

亂了思緒也亂了我的心
失去你是我的決定
心卻偷偷為你哭泣
告訴我這是錯誤的決定

不知不覺 心說服了我
我的錯誤決定傷透了心
原諒我的一時衝動
也原諒我曾經放棄你
因為我發現世上對我最好的人 是你

Lyrics#4

你對我的好 我看不到
你對我的溫柔 我也感覺不到
盲的是我的心 傷的卻是你的心

再一次選擇 離開了你
那一次的決定 決定和你分離
虛脫了我的心 卻背叛了你的心

放棄你的我不停責怪自己
心裡腦海出現全部還是你
原諒我的一時衝動放棄你
這一次不再輕易的放開你
因為我最愛的人原來是你

“One difference between poetry and lyrics is that lyrics sort of fade into the background. They fade on the page and live on the stage when set to music.” ~ Stephen Sondheim

很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我 每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信 自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 改变我

你是情人 还是朋友
还没勇气 想得太多
你的世界 如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

“The way to recover the meaning of life and the worthwhileness of life is to recover the power of experience, to have impulse voices from within, and to be able to hear these impulse voices from within - and make the point : This can be done.” ~ Abraham Maslow

"Eye contact provides important social and emotional information;
People, perhaps without consciously doing so, probe each other's eyes and faces for positive or negative mood signs." [source: Wikipedia]

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I received a negative signal today.

“Use non-verbal communication to SOFTEN the hard-line position of others: S = Smile O = Open Posture F = Forward Lean T = Touch E = Eye Contact N = Nod.”

In order to get prepared for the H1N1 outburst, I was one of the candidates to work from home & feedback the problems encountered.

Sounds good huh?

Not that good actually.

Working from home will tend to make you slack...

I overslept.

The weather was so hot that your laptop felt hot too & would tend to move your focus to the fridge.

I couldn't remember how many times I had opened my fridge today.

When that happened... tendency of getting fat is very high.

Adding in my mum's nagging, the noise of vacuum cleaner, TV , drilling work from somewhere etc & my mum & brother kept coming in to my room, how can I concentrate to work?

I thought I could slack a bit in between emails today but customers chose to add on my workload today, not yesterday & not tomorrow.

However, during my official lunch time which I already had my lunch earlier while working, I got to play with my doggies & that is one of the pros I can think of.

Maybe another pros is I can work in my sleeping attire.. so comfy wooo hooo

Ok.. the last pros I can think of is I can knock off immediately... to go gym to burn the calories I gathered today.

My room is pink.

My bed is pink.

My room's poster is pink.

My earphone is pink.

My jacket is pink.

My pencil case is pink.

My knitting bag is pink.

My luggage is pink.

My luggage strap is pink.

Contradictingly, my favourite colour is BLUE.

“You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need” ~ The Rolling Stones

It's moving when you are thinking.

It's moving when you are deciding.

It's moving when you are walking.

It's moving when you are sleeping.

It's even moving when you are doing nothing.

It's moving so quietly that you won't realise it.

How many days left for June ... & how many days left to Australia?

“Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you.”

Day 0:

My dream trip to Japan felt so unreal even on the day itself.

We took the A380 air bus & it was quite comfy.
I wasn't able to make any comparison as I had forgotten how the old air bus was like.

But...where was my after-meal dessert, ice-cream?
SIA cut cost?!!

We took the night flight & I had to rush home immediately after work... it was tiring.

But we were still able to smile happily. ^^

Took a short nap after watching the "Slumdog Millionaire" & we were woken up at around 5am (Singapore time) to have breakfast! That was real early!

However, I was glad I woke up, if not I would have miss the most beautiful sunrise ever.