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................. Cute!!!

I rejected the offer by my company as a perm staff.

Today while he was walking behind me,

he mumbled like a child...

"why did you reject our offer?"

I turned around & smiled at him awkwardly...

"Want me to talk to you?" He asked.

I immediately shouted "NO!!" & scurried away!

Ha ha

I admit I'm a soft hearted person.

People used my weakness to take advantage of me sometimes.

But today my senior pleaded me to reconsider to stay...

I wavered again.

I'm so useless! So wishy washy!!!

Between Favor & Prospects, I know the latter is more important...isn't it?

“Indecision is the graveyard of good intentions”

在东京铁塔　第一次眺望
看灯火模仿　坠落的星光
我终於到达　但却更悲伤
一个人完成　我们的梦想

你总说　时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天　就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛


没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙　让我去流浪
在原地等我　把自己捆绑

你没说　你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动　自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着　你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰　你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go." ~ Herman Hesse

I believe my indecisiveness is because I have thinking cells aplenty.

I was told by many people that I always think too much.

I realised that.

Always worrying about consequences of things that have not even happen.

I aways make a mountain out of a mole hill.

Over rational sometimes.

In relationship, my friends often tell me to lower my expectations.

However, I really do not know when did I start to choose the man to be with rationally.

By check listing on looks, prospects, personalities etc.

My heart's expectation is actually very simple, as long as I feel happy with him...

but my mind always eventually suppressed the heart's will.

“The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.”~ Thomas Merton

My colleague told our new colleague...

" Got problem, you can look for Casey, she's a kind girl............."

Being kind only ended up getting more workloads.

I decided not to be so kind so I talked harshly to my storeman today saying that he was being unhelpful for not helping me when I requested his help earlier.

He then said, "Ok, I'm free now, just let me know what do you want."

Did he sense that I was being harsh???

Am I harsh enough?

Or is it by being harsh, people will tends to help you more?

I'm confused.

“Do not destroy a child’s dignity. There is a vast difference between being harsh and being firm.”

I wanna get out of the tiny circle i'm cooping in for so long!

I'm still the same old me, the same one 10 years ago.....

It only means there's no progress & no improvement made.

I hate that!

How can I learn to be tougher, be firmer & be more confident?

Frustrated!!!

Where is the sense of achievement I'm yearning for?

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”~ Mark Victor Hansen

Recently,

I'm quite busy with Paulo Coelho ~ (Time for reading),

I'm very busy playing with my PSP ~ (Time for Tales of the World),

I'm also busy crochetting my booties ~ (Time for Crochetting),

I'm always busy revising my Japanese ~ (Nihongo no jikan),

I'm kinda busy with my Korean Drama ~ (Time for Behind the white tower),

I'm definitely very busy with my Japanese Dramas ~ (Time for Absolute Boyfriend / Last Friends!) ,




I'm also seems to be busy listening to his songs ~ (Relaxing time),

I like his soothing voice ~ & .....

Now time to be busy with my beauty sleep! ^.^

"Most people are so busy knocking themselves out trying to do everything they think they should do, they never get around to what they want to do."