More than one person had ever told me that I'm defensive.
The first person who told me this is my ex-manager.
Before he told me, I didn't realize it at all.
However, come to think of it...
If I don't defend myself...
who will?
“We defend ourselves with descriptions and tame the world by generalizing” ~ Iris Murdoch
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When a person's age grows along with the number of years in the company...
She will try all means to protect herself & her position.
In order to display her knowledge gained from the experience...
she will show no mercy.
Even if she has to backstab you.
If not, she will lose her value.
I was backstabbed by her.
That's the working life in a MNC.
No flexibility as well.
Always the same question, "What's the process?"
Without the process, nobody knows how to work anymore.
“The crucial variable in the process of turning knowledge into value is creativity.” ~ John Kao
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While tidying my mailbox, I found a draft mail which I have saved it since 4th Sep 2004.
I found the first lyrics that I ever wrote for Yida's competition but I didn't find it good enough to enter so I never send it in the end.
However, at that time & even till now, I still couldn't think of a song title for it.
Anyway, enjoy Casey Chan's first lyrics that inspired her for the 2nd, 3rd, 4th & more to come.
Hopefully, one day, Casey can have her first complete song.
頑張ります!
Lyrics#1
詞: Casey
曲: Yida
時間走的太慢
一分一秒不停旋轉
一點一滴把愛轉淡
時間讓愛變慢
讓心也越來越孤單
告訴我應該怎麼辦
好想回頭看一看
從前多麼的勇敢
愛你不覺的孤單
請你 將我心用愛填滿
不再讓它空虛寂寞孤單
把它變成賓紛又燦爛
讓我 再愛你感覺不難
不再讓我的愛變的茫然
也沒有遺憾
時間走的太慢
一分一秒不停旋轉
一點一滴把愛轉淡
時間讓愛變慢
變的孤單
應該怎麼辦
好想回頭看一看
從前多麼的勇敢
愛你不覺的孤單
請你 將我心用愛填滿
不再讓它空虛寂寞孤單
把它變成賓紛又燦爛
讓我能再愛你感覺不難
不再讓我的愛變的茫然
也沒有遺憾
感謝你將我心用愛填滿
不再讓它空虛寂寞孤單
把它變成賓紛又好燦爛
讓我 再愛你感覺不太難
不再讓我的愛變的茫然
也沒有遺憾
有你在身旁
怕遺憾
時間慢 愛變慢
會孤單 讓愛填滿
看一看 多勇敢 不孤單
不太難 不茫然 沒遺憾
Lyrics#2
幸福過後
電話聲响起時 我知道那一定是你
一句溫暖話語 直往心中幸福區域
不管天涯海角 只要你在身邊就好
心里甜甜滋味 因為是你所以加倍
想說一聲謝謝你曾給過的一切
雖然所有的美夢已經被你破滅
從今以後只能選擇一個人逛街
最後只希望你能好好和我告別
電話再次响起 我知道不會再是你
沒有溫暖話語 心中圍繞孤單區域
不管天涯海角 只要你還過的很好
心里苦澀滋味 因為是你所以加倍
Lyrics#3
思緒都是離開我的你
開口的是我 離開的是你
亂了思緒也亂了我的心
失去你是我的決定
心卻偷偷為你哭泣
告訴我這是錯誤的決定
不知不覺 心說服了我
我的錯誤決定傷透了心
原諒我的一時衝動
也原諒我曾經放棄你
因為我發現世上對我最好的人 是你
Lyrics#4
你對我的好 我看不到
你對我的溫柔 我也感覺不到
盲的是我的心 傷的卻是你的心
再一次選擇 離開了你
那一次的決定 決定和你分離
虛脫了我的心 卻背叛了你的心
放棄你的我不停責怪自己
心裡腦海出現全部還是你
原諒我的一時衝動放棄你
這一次不再輕易的放開你
因為我最愛的人原來是你
“One difference between poetry and lyrics is that lyrics sort of fade into the background. They fade on the page and live on the stage when set to music.” ~ Stephen Sondheim
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很感激 这城市拥挤的交通
让你我 还能多相处几分钟
人潮中 怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松 不放松
忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我 每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信 自己感受不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂
我的心 是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我 想你的时间不够用
为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我 改变我
你是情人 还是朋友
还没勇气 想得太多
你的世界 如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落
“The way to recover the meaning of life and the worthwhileness of life is to recover the power of experience, to have impulse voices from within, and to be able to hear these impulse voices from within - and make the point : This can be done.” ~ Abraham Maslow
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"Eye contact provides important social and emotional information;
People, perhaps without consciously doing so, probe each other's eyes and faces for positive or negative mood signs." [source: Wikipedia]
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I received a negative signal today.
“Use non-verbal communication to SOFTEN the hard-line position of others: S = Smile O = Open Posture F = Forward Lean T = Touch E = Eye Contact N = Nod.”
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In order to get prepared for the H1N1 outburst, I was one of the candidates to work from home & feedback the problems encountered.
Sounds good huh?
Not that good actually.
Working from home will tend to make you slack...
I overslept.
The weather was so hot that your laptop felt hot too & would tend to move your focus to the fridge.
I couldn't remember how many times I had opened my fridge today.
When that happened... tendency of getting fat is very high.
Adding in my mum's nagging, the noise of vacuum cleaner, TV , drilling work from somewhere etc & my mum & brother kept coming in to my room, how can I concentrate to work?
I thought I could slack a bit in between emails today but customers chose to add on my workload today, not yesterday & not tomorrow.
However, during my official lunch time which I already had my lunch earlier while working, I got to play with my doggies & that is one of the pros I can think of.
Maybe another pros is I can work in my sleeping attire.. so comfy wooo hooo
Ok.. the last pros I can think of is I can knock off immediately... to go gym to burn the calories I gathered today.
“Strength of character may be learned at work, but beauty of character is learned at home.”~ Henry Drummond
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My room is pink.
My bed is pink.
My room's poster is pink.
My earphone is pink.
My jacket is pink.
My pencil case is pink.
My knitting bag is pink.
My luggage is pink.
My luggage strap is pink.
Contradictingly, my favourite colour is BLUE.
“You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need” ~ The Rolling Stones
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It's moving when you are thinking.
It's moving when you are deciding.
It's moving when you are walking.
It's moving when you are sleeping.
It's even moving when you are doing nothing.
It's moving so quietly that you won't realise it.
How many days left for June ... & how many days left to Australia?
“Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you.”
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Day 0:
My dream trip to Japan felt so unreal even on the day itself.
We took the A380 air bus & it was quite comfy.
I wasn't able to make any comparison as I had forgotten how the old air bus was like.
But...where was my after-meal dessert, ice-cream?
SIA cut cost?!!
We took the night flight & I had to rush home immediately after work... it was tiring.
But we were still able to smile happily. ^^
Took a short nap after watching the "Slumdog Millionaire" & we were woken up at around 5am (Singapore time) to have breakfast! That was real early!However, I was glad I woke up, if not I would have miss the most beautiful sunrise ever.
Day 1:I took my first step to practise my Japanese & it was when I was confirming with another passenger about the destination of the train we were taking. He understood what I said!
It was such a morale booster!
On the way searching for our hotel, I went to the police for help & again he understood what I was asking & gladly I could understand what he explained too!
I never felt so glad that all my my effort paid off!
After checking in the hotel, we set off to Ikebukuro.
Oh my! I felt a bit regret that I should have chosen the Ikebukuro branch of my hotel.
The guys there were so....... CUTE!!! *drooling*
We met a friendly uncle & his cute doggie while we were walking along the Ikebukuro street. His dog was so cute that made us went over to chat with him. It was because of that rain that we bidded sayonara to them.
Our best meal of that day was the "unexpected finding" of a small soba/udon shop. The meal wasn't expensive & the shop did not have any high class decoration but it was comfortable & its soba/udon was so unforgettably delicious!
Day 2:The area that we stayed at was very interesting though two of my friends were so scared.
We stayed at Shinjuku but it was near the red light district.
Don't miss understood, it wasn't the ladies who were servicing the men....
It was a street where the men service the lonely ladies so I felt it was ok as there wasn't any weird uncles around that area.
Those patronizing the men are lonely ladies so it wasn't that scary at all & the men there were "beautiful", as if they had just popped out from anime!
However, away from the red light district, on the other side of Shinjuku was the busy shopping district & one of Tokyo's busiest train station.
Look out for the Matcha Ice-cream shop at the train station. It was yummy! I love it!
I love matcha!
We met another friendly uncle who was laughing at us when we were busy taking photos in the train. Hence, we asked him to join us & he agreed immediately!
He looked so cute with the peace sign. LOL
At Roppongi, we came across a pet shop & it was many many times better than Singapore ones.Obviously the animals there were cuter & instead of lying on the mash metal plate, the animals were lying on the comfy mat.
Japan is such a dog friendly country! The dogs are allowed to board the train, allowed to walk on the streets with no one screaming out loud when they saw them & the best thing is they are allowed to go shopping in shopping mall with their owners!!!
Singapore?! Sighz ~ Forget it!
On our way to Roppongi Hill, we met a Japanese man, carrying a baby & leashing a Shiba Inu!!
Shiba Inu!!! It was so cute!
The man was so friendly as we approached him if we could pat his dog.
A good Japanese husband waiting for his beautiful ex_SIA's stewardess wife, who was busy buying something.
Karen was impressed & fell in love with Roppongi.
Roppongi was really classy. ^^
Day 3:On a Sunday morning, every guidebook will tell you to head straight to Harajuku.
We did.
I love Harajuku's train station.
No chance to cosplay but it was my first time seeing people cosplaying.Though not what I was expecting but at least better than nothing.
They were gathering there & tourists were taking pictures of them as if they were some exhibits but some didn't mind though some rejected photo taking. 
We went to the wrong direction & couldn't find Meiji-Jingu.We saw some obasans & we went forward to ask for direction.
Amusingly, they were lost & were looking for Meiji-Jingu too!
At Meiji-Jingu, we were lucky to be able to witness three wedding couples having their traditional ceremony there.
Their traditional wedding ceremony was so quiet & we were not used to it but it was such an eye-opening event.
At Harajuku, the snacks that must not missed there is their CREPES!!Delicious!
There were plenty of stores selling crepes in Harajuku & we decided to try this store.
We spotted a shop selling pets' accessories. Big sized dog costumes can be easily found in Japan & all the designs are soooooo cute!
I have never seen a dog's costume for big dogs selling here in Singapore. *sad*
How I wish my Happie is willing to wear this bumble bee costume.
A nice ramen shop we discovered at Shibuya & we saw they have another branch at Shinjuku too.All the ramen they sell over there were not cheap but seems kinda popular as we could find signatures all over their walls.
Worth the try, you won't regret.
Day 4:Getting out of the city life, we were heading towards Hakone, with the hope to see Fuji-san if we have the fate.
The cute train captain was so shy to take the photo with us. Hee hee.
Fuji-san!! My first sight of her was inside the cable car & it was spectacular!!I couldn't control my excitement at all!
She was soooo beautiful ^0^
I wanna reach that summit one day.
On our way to our hotel, we spotted a small shop selling ice-cream.We were so excited that we found something so nice!
The black sesame ice-cream was really yummy!
I miss it so much!
They even have the sakura flavor but too bad it was out-of-stock.
Our first time sleeping in a Japanese tatami room.Though at first the room reminded me of Sadako but during the night I was too exhausted to remember anything.
Nothing could wake me up anyway & who cares about Sadako!
If she happens to disturb my beauty sleep, I'll be the one who's cursing her.
We went to the Gotemba Premium Outlet & on our way there, we met a very cool guy.I talked to him! haha asking for direction only but it was enough.
He was cool but we saw him smoking ... It's bad for health, Mr Cool Guy!
Gotemba was not really for me cos it's a place with all the expensive stuffs but I was glad I went as the view of Fuji-san was breathtaking over there.
However, our fate with Fuji-san was not that strong as the weather was kinda foggy.
We held a meeting for about 30 minutes on how we should shower & jump into the hotspring with minimal awkwardness.
The hot spring experience was funny but it was fun & unforgettable.Nobody had expected the hot spring to be that hot!
Day 5:After a good night sleep on the futon, we headed to the dining room for breakfast.
On my way to the dining room, we passed by the main door & I was walking last, I happened to notice the main door was moving slighly with no one around. Out of curiousity, I went over, wanting to close it completely, suddenly the door was opened by a guy.
I was startled but he looked at me & my friends strangely & started to tell us that he had seen us before.
Unbelievably that we had stayed at the same hotels, both at Toyko & Hakone!
To be staying at the same hotels at two areas & at the same time, I guessed it does not happen easily since there are so many hotels in Tokyo & Hakone!
He came to Japan with his mum from Taiwan & we decided to travel together for that day.
I still wonder if that door didn't move that morning....
With him around, taking group photos were so much easier.However I felt so awkward around him as my friends were pushing me to him! Sighz~
We took the pirates ships...
enjoyed the sea breeze or should be cold breeze...
went to the shrine & saw the torii...
& went to the sulfuric spring to eat the famous black eggs which could extend your life for 7 years per egg....
it's milky colour.
Day 6:
The day I was waiting for!
We managed to get the tickets at 200 yen cheaper each! Wooo hooo!
I felt like a child again. The money spent on the ticket was worth it ^^
I love Disneyland!
Pooh was so cute!
Pluto! I love its paws...Reminded me of my doggies
Gin's favourite character! His beak hit my face when I was trying to adjust my position! *ouch*
Captain Jack wannabe.. I still prefer my Johnny Depp. 
& I was the Minnie-wannabe! LOL
Trying so hard to act cute...
This colour suited my clothes so well LOL
We had the Mickey pizza for lunch that day. It looked like a kid's meal but it was yummy!
We had Mickey's ice-cream too! hee hee
Orange flavour.. nice.We were lucky to get a very nice spot for the parade!
Went crazy waving at the performers. They were so close. 
Had one of the Disney staff to take photos with us when we were about to head back to hotel.Why is my face so red? I can't remember why I was laughing so hard.
Day 7:Our tedious day.
The day we had to move hotel from Shinjuku to Ueno.
It was a tough journey with additional luggages from our busy shopping trips.
Along the street of Yanaka, we spotted an elementary school.
In that school, there was this little boy that caught our attention.
He was gorgeous!
Honestly, I think photo doesn't do any justice to him.He was many times more cuter in real person!
I love their school bags & I heard it cost about SGD300+++ for one of that.
The famous Asakusa Shrine.
Decided to draw a lot.
Lot no. 99
ho ho ho! It was the Best Fortune!I wonder when will it be realized.
It has been weeks since I came back from Japan..hmmmm...
Remember to spot our photo at one of Ueno arcade where Julian got the first prize & we were lucky to take the picture together with him.
Day 8:Random photo at one of the cafe which we decided to condemn it.
It sucks! Both service & menu sucks!
Odaiba was beautiful. Will people mistook that we went to New York?
It sure look like we were at New york huh.
Sunset by the sea with Statue of Liberty 2
Venus Fort mall with the blue sky painted on the ceiling...you will forget it's night night when you are there.
Day 9:
Last full day to enjoy.
Sad to leave Japan but have to.
We went to Akihabara & I was expecting to see only otakus there but I could only find a few otakus. To my surprised, I saw some cute guys in the figuring shops! They didn't look like otakus at all.
My dinner that night was bought from the convenience shop.I didn't expect too much from it, just wanna try it out.
Unexpectedly, it was delicious!
Day 10:Time to say goodbye... but
I'll be back Japan!
“Travel, in the younger sort, is a part of education; in the elder, a part of experience.” ~ Francis Bacon, Sr
